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The Personal Pages are where you'll find everything anchored in reality. There will be heartbreaks, hopelessness and hurt but like the threads holding my life together there will be beautifully joyous moments and they really are worth the wait.
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calamansourjah
Sep 16, 20204 min read
Blonde Ambition.
I was in a vicious cycle. I’d weaned myself off of making myself throw up any morsel that passed my lips, but I had replaced it with not...
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calamansourjah
Jul 19, 20201 min read
Memory Lane.
Like the first time that we met, Like the last time that we spoke. Your messy hair and piercing eyes, The love I can’t revoke. I catch...
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calamansourjah
Jul 10, 20201 min read
The Mistake.
Look out at the river, Close my eyes. Breathe in deeply, Feel the guilt rise. Who could deny, The joyless laugh. The echo chamber Of a...
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calamansourjah
Jun 27, 20201 min read
You Can't Miss A Thing.
Something doesn’t sit right these days, The heavy feeling of a lack of embrace. I don’t know what’s to come for me yet, But somehow I...
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calamansourjah
Jun 21, 20201 min read
You Vs Me.
I loved you before I even had the guts And I found you pressed between the pages Of hopelessness and ruts. As that old song told us to...
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calamansourjah
Jun 14, 20201 min read
Can't You Hear That Ticking?
Starve for attention, To regain lost control. Starve to recover, To once again feel whole. It’s quiet over here, You could hear a pin...
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calamansourjah
Jun 10, 20201 min read
The Last Excuse.
I wasn’t asking for too much Just more than you could provide. I wish I’d seen the ending credits Before the change in tide. The ocean...
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calamansourjah
Jun 4, 20201 min read
Burning Bridges Wishing You Were Standing On Them.
There’s something about us I finally understood. I realised it in the moments between The longing and the could. You nestled in between...
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calamansourjah
May 31, 20201 min read
With Me.
The comfort found in worn out scales, Make me feel like I did as a kid. Four strings always felt like home to me, More than six strings...
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calamansourjah
May 30, 20201 min read
New Horizons.
The parts of me I thought I knew, I didn’t until June, So now I dance with solitude when all I want is you. Forget about the summer, when...
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calamansourjah
May 30, 20203 min read
We're Heading For A Breakdown, Kids.
My mum has fallen ill. She has a fever and an infection in her leg and has been taken to hospital only 4 weeks before my brother’s...
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calamansourjah
May 26, 20201 min read
Expiration Date.
We’re not okay, Haven’t been for weeks. I don’t remember how it feels, To be beneath your sheets. Press my palm against the wall, To try...
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calamansourjah
May 25, 20201 min read
I Guess That's Showbiz, Baby.
4am, or thereabouts. I surreptitiously check my phone. The bright screen makes my eyes wince and squint in the darkened room. It’s 4:38,...
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calamansourjah
May 24, 20201 min read
Four Years On.
I never planned on getting this far, There was a day etched out to end. But hey look at me now, In the battle of the pretend. It’s been...
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