calamansourjahSep 16, 20204 min readBlonde Ambition.I was in a vicious cycle. I’d weaned myself off of making myself throw up any morsel that passed my lips, but I had replaced it with not...
calamansourjahJul 19, 20201 min readMemory Lane.Like the first time that we met, Like the last time that we spoke. Your messy hair and piercing eyes, The love I can’t revoke. I catch...
calamansourjahJul 10, 20201 min readThe Mistake.Look out at the river, Close my eyes. Breathe in deeply, Feel the guilt rise. Who could deny, The joyless laugh. The echo chamber Of a...
calamansourjahJun 27, 20201 min readYou Can't Miss A Thing.Something doesn’t sit right these days, The heavy feeling of a lack of embrace. I don’t know what’s to come for me yet, But somehow I...
calamansourjahJun 21, 20201 min readYou Vs Me.I loved you before I even had the guts And I found you pressed between the pages Of hopelessness and ruts. As that old song told us to...
calamansourjahJun 14, 20201 min readCan't You Hear That Ticking?Starve for attention, To regain lost control. Starve to recover, To once again feel whole. It’s quiet over here, You could hear a pin...
calamansourjahJun 10, 20201 min readThe Last Excuse.I wasn’t asking for too much Just more than you could provide. I wish I’d seen the ending credits Before the change in tide. The ocean...
calamansourjahJun 4, 20201 min readBurning Bridges Wishing You Were Standing On Them.There’s something about us I finally understood. I realised it in the moments between The longing and the could. You nestled in between...
calamansourjahMay 31, 20201 min readWith Me.The comfort found in worn out scales, Make me feel like I did as a kid. Four strings always felt like home to me, More than six strings...
calamansourjahMay 30, 20201 min readNew Horizons.The parts of me I thought I knew, I didn’t until June, So now I dance with solitude when all I want is you. Forget about the summer, when...
calamansourjahMay 30, 20203 min readWe're Heading For A Breakdown, Kids.My mum has fallen ill. She has a fever and an infection in her leg and has been taken to hospital only 4 weeks before my brother’s...
calamansourjahMay 26, 20201 min readExpiration Date.We’re not okay, Haven’t been for weeks. I don’t remember how it feels, To be beneath your sheets. Press my palm against the wall, To try...
calamansourjahMay 25, 20201 min readI Guess That's Showbiz, Baby.4am, or thereabouts. I surreptitiously check my phone. The bright screen makes my eyes wince and squint in the darkened room. It’s 4:38,...
calamansourjahMay 24, 20201 min readFour Years On.I never planned on getting this far, There was a day etched out to end. But hey look at me now, In the battle of the pretend. It’s been...